maybe it's all over

alright, everyone who reads this either doesnt know people involved or is sworn to secrecy about anything i ever write here.. i dont want names flung around willy nilly, because its too easy for worlds to collide, but i had to get this down somewhere. you guys that write here know who i'm talking about anyway.

There's a girl i've been crushing on for a little while now who's been with her boyfriend for about a year, and theyve been living together for the bulk of that time... said girl had an argument with said girl's boyfriend, and came for a drive with me to the beach. we sat and talked about things and then it happened... said girl went and kissed me... very much so.. much 'uhherr shit shit shit sorry' ensued by both parties and in speaking to eachother realised mutual feelings. after a trod through the sprinklers and a sprint back to the car things became a little steamy, but I really had to stop it, and did so. I made her tell me honestly if it was me, or if it was just the shit with her and her other half, and she said it was me.. so she's either EVIL DEVIL WOMAN SENT STRAIGHT FROM HELL or she genuinely feels something.. in which case she'll be alright with what im going to say to her about cooling it until things are sorted... i hope.

This next week is going to be sleepless, insane, upsetting, stomach churning.. and then some...