Friday, January 11, 2002
Someone here will recognise this.. this person's leaving the COUNTRY, not just the CITY they live in, but if we dilute this only a little, it's almost exactly what i think about every now-and-then:
like a part of me is scared to leave, and is now trying to make the adventurous side of me take stock of what i will actually be losing. And i don't fool myself; i will be losing a lot. My relationships with many of my friends will deteriorate, and no matter how many letters i hope to write to people i know that within a few months there shall only be a small handful of people who i still care about. Letting go of years of freindship, letting go of history in a sense is difficult. It's like letting go of myself...finally accepting that what was is exactly that - what was, not what is. And with that memories shall be lost, laughter forgotten...kinda sad. -Z
the dilution comes in the form of how much I'll be losing, because my closest friends don't actually live here.. and i always stay in touch with those of my friends.. but family, and still, friends who live here. "Inevitability is the bane of my existence" : Knowing that a huge loss will inevitably mean nothing with time hurts even more than the loss itself
like a part of me is scared to leave, and is now trying to make the adventurous side of me take stock of what i will actually be losing. And i don't fool myself; i will be losing a lot. My relationships with many of my friends will deteriorate, and no matter how many letters i hope to write to people i know that within a few months there shall only be a small handful of people who i still care about. Letting go of years of freindship, letting go of history in a sense is difficult. It's like letting go of myself...finally accepting that what was is exactly that - what was, not what is. And with that memories shall be lost, laughter forgotten...kinda sad. -Z
the dilution comes in the form of how much I'll be losing, because my closest friends don't actually live here.. and i always stay in touch with those of my friends.. but family, and still, friends who live here. "Inevitability is the bane of my existence" : Knowing that a huge loss will inevitably mean nothing with time hurts even more than the loss itself
