Friday, November 30, 2001
:O that was elise in a BAD mood? oh my.
AHH! *runs into a wall* Wendy likes birds, Zoe giggles like a school girl and Elise is.. well.. asleep soon but IN A CRAPTASTIC MOOD. *rubs eye* now its just hurting. Today I swam and made noise. Oh and I spoke to leese. My throat hurts, my eye hurts and my face hurts because im sunburnt but im not in a craptastic mood. That was allll last week and early this week! I work tomorrow at 9, which means i'll be starting work at the same time as Elise, but Elise just *thinks* she gets to sleep in later (when REALLY its only because she went to bed earlier, kind of, but, not, AHH I DONT KNOW IT MAKES MY HEAD HURT) silly daylight savings. hrmph.
There was something really really interesting to put here, I know it.. hoh well. g'night!
AHH! *runs into a wall* Wendy likes birds, Zoe giggles like a school girl and Elise is.. well.. asleep soon but IN A CRAPTASTIC MOOD. *rubs eye* now its just hurting. Today I swam and made noise. Oh and I spoke to leese. My throat hurts, my eye hurts and my face hurts because im sunburnt but im not in a craptastic mood. That was allll last week and early this week! I work tomorrow at 9, which means i'll be starting work at the same time as Elise, but Elise just *thinks* she gets to sleep in later (when REALLY its only because she went to bed earlier, kind of, but, not, AHH I DONT KNOW IT MAKES MY HEAD HURT) silly daylight savings. hrmph.
There was something really really interesting to put here, I know it.. hoh well. g'night!
Thursday, November 29, 2001
I like birds.
(no really, I do!)
(no really, I do!)
Hey Elise, I only *write* the tortured arty soul well, I dont *do* it well.. I'm more a silent arty soul.. im really not tortured :P
I'm getting Geoff Farina on CD. I ORDERED IT TONIGHT *beams* AND I'm getting the vancouver nights self titled album. ROCKING. MY. WORLD.
mondo grouse.
im out
spiff!
I'm getting Geoff Farina on CD. I ORDERED IT TONIGHT *beams* AND I'm getting the vancouver nights self titled album. ROCKING. MY. WORLD.
mondo grouse.
im out
spiff!
Wednesday, November 28, 2001
night an' fog are my days...
This weather has made me oddly.. get this.. wait for it.. *happy*
It feels like there's a change just 'round the corner (possibly summer, duh) and some strange things are going on in my brain!
Could this be *true* ignorance? It doesn't feel like im ignoring anything, all that crap's still there.
OH GOD WHATS GOING ON
=D
This weather has made me oddly.. get this.. wait for it.. *happy*
It feels like there's a change just 'round the corner (possibly summer, duh) and some strange things are going on in my brain!
Could this be *true* ignorance? It doesn't feel like im ignoring anything, all that crap's still there.
OH GOD WHATS GOING ON
=D
Sunday, November 25, 2001
Tonight is all about new sounds.. new and sometimes strange sounds. I stumbled upon this gem of a place just a little earlier. There's some tres different/strange/new sound. I suggest you guffaw at this, elise/zoe/wendy/anyone-else.
When i was about 13, I had the biggest fear of death. I don't know what sparked it to start with, but i used to lose weeks of sleep, literally - to the point where i ended up seeing a child psychologist. When i thought about it, I got a physical feeling thats undescribable - it sat around my stomach - it didnt hurt my body, but it hurt my mind. I used to think of what it would be like to be gone, it made me so incredibly distraught that i wouldn't see any of my friends or family again, i wouldnt be able to feel anymore, and the worst part, I wouldn't realise it, and it wouldn't bother me, because i wasn't existing. What hurts most about losing someone or something important to me is that I know that in time, it won't hurt anymore. It's not that i would want it to keep hurting, but knowing that eventually the pain would be so small that it wouldn't change how i lead my life horrifies me. Knowing that a huge loss will inevitably mean nothing with time hurts even more than the loss itself, in my mind. I don't have a fear of death anymore, but anytime something important to me ends, or i lose something important to me, I get that physical feeling in my stomach that hurts my mind.
And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.
-end existentialist foray-
Why do my parents have such horrible short term memories? I told my mother what time i started work and what time i finished work and what time i expected to be home from this Compaq product night (free beer free wine free food free fun..kindof) not an hour ago, but before she went to bed she felt she had to ask me for all that information again. It happens all the time! :O
-end complaint about parental guidance units-
If I undressed you in the day
would you still act the same way
that you do in the dark?
Maybe we could save time that way
maybe we could be done by nine.
If I just left you in the park
would you still walk home the same way
like you did last year?
Or would you try to save time 'the way home
If I wasn't out here?
All the dust I swept away yesterday
still returns
as I stare
And one neighbour looks away
when i walk by
like you, he learns, im not there
On the drive out to the store
I trace your name out three times with my finger on my knee.
I pretend you sit beside me as we drive
towards a day at the beach
But all the rust on this old car
falls away in the rain
as I stare
I hear you say I have to change
I cannot change
Of course, I turn and you're not there.
When i was about 13, I had the biggest fear of death. I don't know what sparked it to start with, but i used to lose weeks of sleep, literally - to the point where i ended up seeing a child psychologist. When i thought about it, I got a physical feeling thats undescribable - it sat around my stomach - it didnt hurt my body, but it hurt my mind. I used to think of what it would be like to be gone, it made me so incredibly distraught that i wouldn't see any of my friends or family again, i wouldnt be able to feel anymore, and the worst part, I wouldn't realise it, and it wouldn't bother me, because i wasn't existing. What hurts most about losing someone or something important to me is that I know that in time, it won't hurt anymore. It's not that i would want it to keep hurting, but knowing that eventually the pain would be so small that it wouldn't change how i lead my life horrifies me. Knowing that a huge loss will inevitably mean nothing with time hurts even more than the loss itself, in my mind. I don't have a fear of death anymore, but anytime something important to me ends, or i lose something important to me, I get that physical feeling in my stomach that hurts my mind.
And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.
Why do my parents have such horrible short term memories? I told my mother what time i started work and what time i finished work and what time i expected to be home from this Compaq product night (free beer free wine free food free fun..kindof) not an hour ago, but before she went to bed she felt she had to ask me for all that information again. It happens all the time! :O
If I undressed you in the day
would you still act the same way
that you do in the dark?
Maybe we could save time that way
maybe we could be done by nine.
If I just left you in the park
would you still walk home the same way
like you did last year?
Or would you try to save time 'the way home
If I wasn't out here?
All the dust I swept away yesterday
still returns
as I stare
And one neighbour looks away
when i walk by
like you, he learns, im not there
On the drive out to the store
I trace your name out three times with my finger on my knee.
I pretend you sit beside me as we drive
towards a day at the beach
But all the rust on this old car
falls away in the rain
as I stare
I hear you say I have to change
I cannot change
Of course, I turn and you're not there.
Geoff Farina - The Same Way
and let us never speak of that again.
I just got back from rescuing my car from the carpark outside mcguires. ITS GOT LOTS OF BIRD POOH ON IT. C'mon Habib, help me wash my car, Habib!
eheh habib.
I just got back from rescuing my car from the carpark outside mcguires. ITS GOT LOTS OF BIRD POOH ON IT. C'mon Habib, help me wash my car, Habib!
eheh habib.
*note* this post may contain coarse language
To Clarify: Drew = Megans boyfriend - sean = their housemate slash (friend..) - steven = friend.. - matthew = friend
My legs are aching. I walked home what's maybe 7-8km last night from the other side of town. I was going to stay at Megan/Drew/sean's house last night, but i figured it best not to. It all started out as a normal night out, except for the free beer. Then we went to one of the clubs.. (why? tell me) In handing Megan the remainder of my beer to visit the boys room, i got bumped into by some dude walking past and hit a nearly-empty drink that dribbled onto sean. I don't like sean when he's drunk... It's bad enough getting over the i-can-take-anything-because-im-such-a-fucking-man and women-are-just-for-sex facade (i sometimes wonder if he believes the second part) he puts up when he's sober. sean hit me because he got liquid on his pants.. I'd been covered in beer a few hours before, but fuck.. can't have that now can we? He walked out and went to take Megan with him, I pulled her up with a 'wtf' and she shrugged and said she was going.. I asked her to stay, but she wanted to go.. so we went downstairs to talk to her where it was at least a little more quiet.
sean went elsewhere with other people, I hung around when Steven was talking to Megan and i heard him say something along the lines of 'being too friendly' - that pissed me off. I made Megan sit down and tell me what was wrong, to no avail, and we started to walk home (to her house). I thought she was pissed off at me for something, I asked her and she said she wasn't pissed off at me. I asked her to tell me what was wrong, and she said "I'm in love with Drew, that's what" - I think that's when she started crying.. I wasn't far behind. It suprised me, what Megan said. My mind wasn't even on what happened between us until I got downstairs and I overheard Steven. We kept walking with Matthew trailing behind (he was staying there too, he knows about what happened between megan and I and I think he knew I wanted to talk to Megan and find out what was wrong). We stopped down one of the streets, Matthew kept walking and Megan and I talked. I told her that I wanted her to be the person in this town I could talk to about anything, considering I don't have someone like that *here*.
She kept saying really horrible things about herself, "I'm sorry I'm here, Benny" I told her that was stupid. Of all the people to fall for. We both ended up a sobbing mess sitting on the side of the road and we talked a bit. I asked her to tell me if she was just fucking me around, and that it wasn't gonna be easier either way so she might as well tell me honestly. She said no. She said she did feel something for me. She wanted to know why she was so important. I told her it was because she's her. We were going to go our seperate ways then and there (not for good, just for the night) - but i ran after her to give her her hairband i had in my pocket, and I was going to use the phone up ahead to call someone. At the phone box we said goodbye, we kissed, and walked away. I ended up walking home from there, even further from where I started. I'm sore from walking, I'm tired from lack of sleep, I'm hurting because of obvious reasons, but its only a matter of time before I'm ok.
To Clarify: Drew = Megans boyfriend - sean = their housemate slash (friend..) - steven = friend.. - matthew = friend
My legs are aching. I walked home what's maybe 7-8km last night from the other side of town. I was going to stay at Megan/Drew/sean's house last night, but i figured it best not to. It all started out as a normal night out, except for the free beer. Then we went to one of the clubs.. (why? tell me) In handing Megan the remainder of my beer to visit the boys room, i got bumped into by some dude walking past and hit a nearly-empty drink that dribbled onto sean. I don't like sean when he's drunk... It's bad enough getting over the i-can-take-anything-because-im-such-a-fucking-man and women-are-just-for-sex facade (i sometimes wonder if he believes the second part) he puts up when he's sober. sean hit me because he got liquid on his pants.. I'd been covered in beer a few hours before, but fuck.. can't have that now can we? He walked out and went to take Megan with him, I pulled her up with a 'wtf' and she shrugged and said she was going.. I asked her to stay, but she wanted to go.. so we went downstairs to talk to her where it was at least a little more quiet.
sean went elsewhere with other people, I hung around when Steven was talking to Megan and i heard him say something along the lines of 'being too friendly' - that pissed me off. I made Megan sit down and tell me what was wrong, to no avail, and we started to walk home (to her house). I thought she was pissed off at me for something, I asked her and she said she wasn't pissed off at me. I asked her to tell me what was wrong, and she said "I'm in love with Drew, that's what" - I think that's when she started crying.. I wasn't far behind. It suprised me, what Megan said. My mind wasn't even on what happened between us until I got downstairs and I overheard Steven. We kept walking with Matthew trailing behind (he was staying there too, he knows about what happened between megan and I and I think he knew I wanted to talk to Megan and find out what was wrong). We stopped down one of the streets, Matthew kept walking and Megan and I talked. I told her that I wanted her to be the person in this town I could talk to about anything, considering I don't have someone like that *here*.
She kept saying really horrible things about herself, "I'm sorry I'm here, Benny" I told her that was stupid. Of all the people to fall for. We both ended up a sobbing mess sitting on the side of the road and we talked a bit. I asked her to tell me if she was just fucking me around, and that it wasn't gonna be easier either way so she might as well tell me honestly. She said no. She said she did feel something for me. She wanted to know why she was so important. I told her it was because she's her. We were going to go our seperate ways then and there (not for good, just for the night) - but i ran after her to give her her hairband i had in my pocket, and I was going to use the phone up ahead to call someone. At the phone box we said goodbye, we kissed, and walked away. I ended up walking home from there, even further from where I started. I'm sore from walking, I'm tired from lack of sleep, I'm hurting because of obvious reasons, but its only a matter of time before I'm ok.
Saturday, November 24, 2001
free BEER free BEER free BEER
*goes to McGuires*
*goes to McGuires*
Thursday, November 22, 2001
I heard on the grapevine that Jules is a slut.. like OH MY GOD what EVER (omg asl@#?!)
Elise is away, Zoe is away. Wendy's inundated with stuff by the looks of her blog so here, today, ladies and gents, I WELCOME YOU TO...
B's Not Quite an E/N site!
In the news today we have:
Ben decides he doesnt want more than a friendship, realises his work there is done and girl in question realises that there are better people out there
Ben works 2pm til god-knows-when due to head office stuff ups they expect us to fix
Ben decides that he's staying three nights on his next trip to townsville, hopefully on the 14th - 17th of December
Excitement and anticipation, albeit tear-jerking
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST... Did You Know...
The launching mechanisms of aircraft carriers that help planes take off (the catapult), could throw a 4WD ute over 1.5 kilometres.
How neat! (no, i DONT visit hearye! (hah yeah, right) psh)
Elise is away, Zoe is away. Wendy's inundated with stuff by the looks of her blog so here, today, ladies and gents, I WELCOME YOU TO...
B's Not Quite an E/N site!
In the news today we have:
Ben decides he doesnt want more than a friendship, realises his work there is done and girl in question realises that there are better people out there
Ben works 2pm til god-knows-when due to head office stuff ups they expect us to fix
Ben decides that he's staying three nights on his next trip to townsville, hopefully on the 14th - 17th of December
Excitement and anticipation, albeit tear-jerking
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST... Did You Know...
The launching mechanisms of aircraft carriers that help planes take off (the catapult), could throw a 4WD ute over 1.5 kilometres.
How neat! (no, i DONT visit hearye! (hah yeah, right) psh)
Sunday, November 18, 2001
I went for a four hour road trip to townsville this weekend. Mondo (*mumbleelisemumble*) different for a change. I went to the casino, put $20 in the 5c pokies and won an extra $10, so i put the original 20 in my wallet and spent $5 on keno and $5 on the $1 machines. I was too much of a wuss to play on the tables.. maybe next time! I was extremely excited about the fuel economy of my thirteen year old car also, it only cost $30 each way to get there and back fuel wise, which was mondo-grouse-choice-bro-as (*mumble*) - and im going to make a habit of getting away like that.
I decided i'd get around to actually doing something with the archive template for this silly menagerie of thoughts, experiences and delights.. considering there's actually archived posts (woah, man.. woah)
I'm tired. I'm confused. I'm going to bed.
I decided i'd get around to actually doing something with the archive template for this silly menagerie of thoughts, experiences and delights.. considering there's actually archived posts (woah, man.. woah)
I'm tired. I'm confused. I'm going to bed.
Thursday, November 15, 2001
I walked away. I'm starting to think it was one of two things.. one, i take things too seriously, and it never was going to be anything more than casual... two, she really didnt want anything more from me, and she actually is one of those people i consider to be dislikeable.. the second would hurt the most, but either way, i don't like to be toyed with.. the thing that really gets to me is that i know if i went over there now, and said i'd changed my mind, she'd be on me in a second. It really doesn't seem to give my feelings any worth.
I only come here
cause I know it makes you sad.
I only do it
cause I know you know it's bad.
Oh don't you know, that it's ugly
and it shouldn't be like that?
Pulp - Pencil Skirt
I only come here
cause I know it makes you sad.
I only do it
cause I know you know it's bad.
Oh don't you know, that it's ugly
and it shouldn't be like that?
Pulp - Pencil Skirt
Tuesday, November 13, 2001
*eats his beans*
Shoulda beans
Has beans
Coulda beans!
It's obviously obvious that i don't have much to do of late considering my astounding contribution to this blog. ITS RAINING :D.
I've got a couple of jokes.
What's yellow and sits in a corner?
A naughty bulldozer.
What's green and would kill you if it fell out of a tree?
A golf course.
WHAT A HOOT!
Shoulda beans
Has beans
Coulda beans!
It's obviously obvious that i don't have much to do of late considering my astounding contribution to this blog. ITS RAINING :D.
I've got a couple of jokes.
What's yellow and sits in a corner?
A naughty bulldozer.
What's green and would kill you if it fell out of a tree?
A golf course.
WHAT A HOOT!
Sunday, November 11, 2001
alright, everyone who reads this either doesnt know people involved or is sworn to secrecy about anything i ever write here.. i dont want names flung around willy nilly, because its too easy for worlds to collide, but i had to get this down somewhere. you guys that write here know who i'm talking about anyway.
There's a girl i've been crushing on for a little while now who's been with her boyfriend for about a year, and theyve been living together for the bulk of that time... said girl had an argument with said girl's boyfriend, and came for a drive with me to the beach. we sat and talked about things and then it happened... said girl went and kissed me... very much so.. much 'uhherr shit shit shit sorry' ensued by both parties and in speaking to eachother realised mutual feelings. after a trod through the sprinklers and a sprint back to the car things became a little steamy, but I really had to stop it, and did so. I made her tell me honestly if it was me, or if it was just the shit with her and her other half, and she said it was me.. so she's either EVIL DEVIL WOMAN SENT STRAIGHT FROM HELL or she genuinely feels something.. in which case she'll be alright with what im going to say to her about cooling it until things are sorted... i hope.
This next week is going to be sleepless, insane, upsetting, stomach churning.. and then some...
There's a girl i've been crushing on for a little while now who's been with her boyfriend for about a year, and theyve been living together for the bulk of that time... said girl had an argument with said girl's boyfriend, and came for a drive with me to the beach. we sat and talked about things and then it happened... said girl went and kissed me... very much so.. much 'uhherr shit shit shit sorry' ensued by both parties and in speaking to eachother realised mutual feelings. after a trod through the sprinklers and a sprint back to the car things became a little steamy, but I really had to stop it, and did so. I made her tell me honestly if it was me, or if it was just the shit with her and her other half, and she said it was me.. so she's either EVIL DEVIL WOMAN SENT STRAIGHT FROM HELL or she genuinely feels something.. in which case she'll be alright with what im going to say to her about cooling it until things are sorted... i hope.
This next week is going to be sleepless, insane, upsetting, stomach churning.. and then some...
oh. my. freaking. god. *wanders around stunned*
as it turns out, this one does indeed have a 'thing' for me. elise im glad i went to that bbq, but im also not.
oh. my. freaking. god. *slow motion*
tsh tsh tsh tss.. kuh kuh ku.. holy :O
as it turns out, this one does indeed have a 'thing' for me. elise im glad i went to that bbq, but im also not.
oh. my. freaking. god. *slow motion*
tsh tsh tsh tss.. kuh kuh ku.. holy :O
Friday, November 09, 2001
I saw a huge promotional stand for the twisties.. weird. I'm feeling rather disinterested this evening.. I was going to go to McGuires for drinkies with a few people, but then she put the silver docs on and i felt like going home. Someone went past in car with country music up at bogan volumes... oh dear. I'm hooked on the Requiem for a Dream soundtrack, and a super piece of music called Lux Aeterna.. go and get it from here... now? Top film *AND* it's got jennifer connelly in it.. HOW CAN YOU GO WRONG!
Congrats on finishing exams leese, have fun with the gay guys and things!
Congrats on finishing exams leese, have fun with the gay guys and things!
Thursday, November 08, 2001
Yup, I've had starburst :D
I'm a steryotypical.. personaloni...
Oh, but you guys, this is SO freaky, I found in the vending machines- Butterscotch Twisties! O____O;; Dudes, you have to see it, it's SO weird.. they taste.. not bad, but not good (me and a friend went halves, we were so curious).
It's almost not gross... and almost disgusting... it's just.. almost...
I'm a steryotypical.. personaloni...
Oh, but you guys, this is SO freaky, I found in the vending machines- Butterscotch Twisties! O____O;; Dudes, you have to see it, it's SO weird.. they taste.. not bad, but not good (me and a friend went halves, we were so curious).
It's almost not gross... and almost disgusting... it's just.. almost...
Thanks for the alt attribute Wendy :)
I changed my nick too, cant have else feeling naked now can we. Really, i don't have much to say. Honest. EVERYONE ELSE DOES NOW!
Good luck with exams wendy n elise.
I changed my nick too, cant have else feeling naked now can we. Really, i don't have much to say. Honest. EVERYONE ELSE DOES NOW!
Good luck with exams wendy n elise.
Ahh, alt attributes are just those dudes that give you a description when you leave your mouse over the image (well, it works on all browsers exceot Netscape 6.0 for some reason.. at least, on my computer ^^)
Yup, i couldn't fit all my coins in my purse so they're all rattling around in my bag, there better not be any holes... I'm so tempted to buy lots of food to get rid of them, but I'm not really that hungry.. and I'll need it to do cooler stuff like movies and stuff.. well, watch movies.. not make them.. eh.. ^~;
Heheh, not at Melbourne Uni ;) I'm at Murdoch Uni, which is in Perth ;D Heheheheheheh... it rocks, so i'm not stressed about the extra time... it's not like I'm doing that much right now, just jingling a lot and using the internet through the library :D
Oooh, in half an hour I get to go be a secretary at a club meeting. Whoo. I got roped into it... ah well.
Yup, i couldn't fit all my coins in my purse so they're all rattling around in my bag, there better not be any holes... I'm so tempted to buy lots of food to get rid of them, but I'm not really that hungry.. and I'll need it to do cooler stuff like movies and stuff.. well, watch movies.. not make them.. eh.. ^~;
Heheh, not at Melbourne Uni ;) I'm at Murdoch Uni, which is in Perth ;D Heheheheheheh... it rocks, so i'm not stressed about the extra time... it's not like I'm doing that much right now, just jingling a lot and using the internet through the library :D
Oooh, in half an hour I get to go be a secretary at a club meeting. Whoo. I got roped into it... ah well.
Awwwww...
*changes to her real name on behalf of Elise ^_~*
I added an alt attribute to the image on the left with our pics on, I just like pics to have alt attributes ^_^;
I only have a $20 note and I wanna buy an drink form the vending machines! *will have to go to the change machine and get $20 worth of $1 coins o_O;;;;;;; Classy!
*spins the records around and makes hooting noise* ... it's hot.
*changes to her real name on behalf of Elise ^_~*
I added an alt attribute to the image on the left with our pics on, I just like pics to have alt attributes ^_^;
I only have a $20 note and I wanna buy an drink form the vending machines! *will have to go to the change machine and get $20 worth of $1 coins o_O;;;;;;; Classy!
*spins the records around and makes hooting noise* ... it's hot.
I need a giant DO NOT DISTURB sign on my back, and front.. and both sides just to make sure that when i work in the afternoon that i have the mornings to myself. Elise was up early.. dude relevance isnt relevant, and most products of the marriage between your fingers and they keyboard are somewhat interesting, it's just that right now all you've got in your head is physio stuff! It's a toilet-blog :/
I hope the merch manager is on close tonight, it makes things much more fun when we have zero customers because they dont realise that we're open til 7pm every night except thursday and friday (then we're open til 9) because WHO SHOPS FOR OFFICE SUPPLIES UNTIL 9PM AROUND HERE. and.. STORES JUST DONT OPEN THOSE HOURS IN MACKAY. or something. man i hate being a hick. *moves*
I hope the merch manager is on close tonight, it makes things much more fun when we have zero customers because they dont realise that we're open til 7pm every night except thursday and friday (then we're open til 9) because WHO SHOPS FOR OFFICE SUPPLIES UNTIL 9PM AROUND HERE. and.. STORES JUST DONT OPEN THOSE HOURS IN MACKAY. or something. man i hate being a hick. *moves*
Awwwwww.... how can I change my profile? o_O I looked all over the site but there doesn't seem to be a way.
I could get a new account for this blog maybe if it all goes naughty...
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Oooer. I just figured it out. So.. it's okay now.. *cough*
I could get a new account for this blog maybe if it all goes naughty...
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Oooer. I just figured it out. So.. it's okay now.. *cough*
Wednesday, November 07, 2001
Dudes, this is a funky funky piece of pie.
There will be fish. Oh yes. My fish will come to help us all!
I'm in a tute right now, I have funky stuff to do. But soon, soon... I will be free... no more Uni after Thursday.. two assignments due in Friday... one exam on the 27th (bwahahahahahahah!) ...
There will also be words.
There will be fish. Oh yes. My fish will come to help us all!
I'm in a tute right now, I have funky stuff to do. But soon, soon... I will be free... no more Uni after Thursday.. two assignments due in Friday... one exam on the 27th (bwahahahahahahah!) ...
There will also be words.
Wendy's in, now its just a matter of waiting 'til i see her online next.. but thassa good that sassa be here.
It's my day off, and my mother's home.. as in, not at work :\ - I like to have days off to myself, that way (a) i get done what i want to get done and (b) i dont get weird looks when i talk to myself loudly and (c) i can play my music at full volume throughout the house. If i get a dvd out today I'll go into work and fillout another transfer request for dandenong and one for taylors lakes, and i might try and scam a melbourne UBD out of the company for a day.. we'll just see how things go. Y'know what, i *will* get a movie or two. y'know.. no i wont.
I came back to edit this post with an existentialist foray of sorts, but after seeing that wendy just posted (!!!!!) i'll just ramble nothingness in honour of the one who calls herself the fish of glass. I'll do so by quoting Pulp.
But then, something changed.
I've worked out that I need to live somewhere near or somewhere commutable to Prahran *when* (i say when, because it is going to happen eventually, it's just the time frame that im not sure about) i move to Melbourne. I've just been told by a friend that my best bet is somewhere like ringwood, its not near, but its commutable and its fairly in-the-middle when it comes to living expenses.. I won't actually be starting uni for a while when i get down there.. i want to do this tafe course first, but i might as well go down there and set myself up in the right spot, right? Elise give me some advice next time i talk to you!
P.S. - Sorry else, i had to compromise - that pink was really starting to hurt my eyes, still got enough 'tude?
It's my day off, and my mother's home.. as in, not at work :\ - I like to have days off to myself, that way (a) i get done what i want to get done and (b) i dont get weird looks when i talk to myself loudly and (c) i can play my music at full volume throughout the house. If i get a dvd out today I'll go into work and fillout another transfer request for dandenong and one for taylors lakes, and i might try and scam a melbourne UBD out of the company for a day.. we'll just see how things go. Y'know what, i *will* get a movie or two. y'know.. no i wont.
I came back to edit this post with an existentialist foray of sorts, but after seeing that wendy just posted (!!!!!) i'll just ramble nothingness in honour of the one who calls herself the fish of glass. I'll do so by quoting Pulp.
But then, something changed.
I've worked out that I need to live somewhere near or somewhere commutable to Prahran *when* (i say when, because it is going to happen eventually, it's just the time frame that im not sure about) i move to Melbourne. I've just been told by a friend that my best bet is somewhere like ringwood, its not near, but its commutable and its fairly in-the-middle when it comes to living expenses.. I won't actually be starting uni for a while when i get down there.. i want to do this tafe course first, but i might as well go down there and set myself up in the right spot, right? Elise give me some advice next time i talk to you!
P.S. - Sorry else, i had to compromise - that pink was really starting to hurt my eyes, still got enough 'tude?
Tuesday, November 06, 2001
in changing the design, i realise these colours are very 'girly' - but it's got 'tude, and i think thats what we're after. im not afraid of being called a girl. at least i can drop my pants and prove them wrong *drum fill*
A blog's here. Here's a blog. I'm gonna post my existential foray of earlier today right here.
Of all my friends, the friends who live near me and i physically see often and the friends i talk to online often/whenever i can, there are a few who i really do 'connect' (hurrah for overused cliches) with.. i see myself and everyone else as having a unique culture, the way we think, the way we act, what we wear, what we like and don't like (and why*), everything that makes us who we are. the friends that i do connect with tend to be those of similar culture to me, similar thought processes, ideas, likes and dislikes.. they definitely arent the same as mine, but theyre close.. similar.. these are the people i'd much rather be around if i had to choose.
* there are people who do what they do, act how they do, wear what they do, and like what they do for different reasons. some to impress, some for themselves, some for comfort. if people want to change their culture to impress, let them, it's what they want. if people change their culture to be comfortable, let them, it's what they want. it really doesnt matter to me their reasons for doing what they do, but i find i only connect with those who it feels like are doing it for similar reasons as i do. I used to be one to try to be everyones friend, a long time ago.. now i do things more for myself than others. a lot of people will call that selfish, but it's not as though i don't help other people, im creating the culture of myself that suits me, my own likes and dislikes... the clothing most comfortable and aesthetically pleasing to me... the music and films that appeal the most to me - i might cop a lot of shit for my likes and dislikes, but its copping the shit that makes me realise that i am doing it for me, and nobody else. I'm not saying that i don't like to be appealing to other people.. i like to be appealing to the right people, and the people that i am appealing to are the right people. my friends are my friends because of me, and i am friends of my friends because of them. (i hope that made sense)
-end existentialist foray-
you know, i don't think that's an existentialst foray.. oo look a butterfly! *wanders off*
Of all my friends, the friends who live near me and i physically see often and the friends i talk to online often/whenever i can, there are a few who i really do 'connect' (hurrah for overused cliches) with.. i see myself and everyone else as having a unique culture, the way we think, the way we act, what we wear, what we like and don't like (and why*), everything that makes us who we are. the friends that i do connect with tend to be those of similar culture to me, similar thought processes, ideas, likes and dislikes.. they definitely arent the same as mine, but theyre close.. similar.. these are the people i'd much rather be around if i had to choose.
* there are people who do what they do, act how they do, wear what they do, and like what they do for different reasons. some to impress, some for themselves, some for comfort. if people want to change their culture to impress, let them, it's what they want. if people change their culture to be comfortable, let them, it's what they want. it really doesnt matter to me their reasons for doing what they do, but i find i only connect with those who it feels like are doing it for similar reasons as i do. I used to be one to try to be everyones friend, a long time ago.. now i do things more for myself than others. a lot of people will call that selfish, but it's not as though i don't help other people, im creating the culture of myself that suits me, my own likes and dislikes... the clothing most comfortable and aesthetically pleasing to me... the music and films that appeal the most to me - i might cop a lot of shit for my likes and dislikes, but its copping the shit that makes me realise that i am doing it for me, and nobody else. I'm not saying that i don't like to be appealing to other people.. i like to be appealing to the right people, and the people that i am appealing to are the right people. my friends are my friends because of me, and i am friends of my friends because of them. (i hope that made sense)
you know, i don't think that's an existentialst foray.. oo look a butterfly! *wanders off*
