Things that take 10 days:

- an order from Chaos Music to arrive here
- also an order from CDNOW (and theyre heaps further away than chaos.. go figure)
- me getting to melbourne
- a ten day walk
- me getting to melbourne

im going to stop before i come up with really bad bad examples, like.. 240 hours

ahh ten.
there's a song by jimmy eat world called 'ten':

We left behind the busy crowd/So it seems we slow down/Meet me with a way out through the lies/Nowhere, going nowhere in the fake yellow light/The feelings change so fast/Safety scares them away/I can't bring myself to say it's my own advice I need/Nowhere and then nowhere/Living trapped inside the chase/Our weekness is the same/We need poison sometimes/So take another drink with me/Blame no one/Look in my eyes and blame no one

Donatello hasn't signed a release form yet, DON'T WORRY I'LL GET ONE. (and im slack slash lazy slash *sigh* I DONT KNOW)
Jen, I'll take what you said as a compliment.. because of the =) at the end!
hooray lucid dreams, Elise.. hooray! ( seriously.. hooray :D )
you know i woke up thinking 10 this morning.. but alas... 11

THE
BEN
SHOW.

why's everyone so busy but me? SLACK YOURE ALL SLACK BECAUSE YOURE SO BUSY.
don't work hard.. go home!

never has such a thing been said...

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i hope we can all see .png

It's so totally 13.. so totally 13 that it's unbelievably 13.

but still.. it's a whole 13

WELCOME TO THE BEN SHOW.
*passes out*

14 - that's two weeks.. two whole weeks..
I walked around the block in the rain at 3am.. but i think im paying the price this morning *sneezes*

When I said rain, I didn't mean threatening storm.. but this threatening storm looks to be an enjoyable one, and I hope it sticks around for today and at least when im at work tomorrow. If only I had a copy of A Clockwork Orange under my bed..

all the archives have been republished now, so they all look the same as the rest of the blog!
theres even some interesting reading there ALREADY! oh dear, goin down in HISTORY, this place is. I can smell rain, sunshine, lollypops, rainbows... minus the last three.. but they might aswell be there. DONT YOU GO PAST ME STORM OR ILL THROW A TANTRUM *snaps*

*runs around in little circles*
*runs into a wall*

*glues himself back together*




































*sighs*

I've never noticed this before.. there's a kitten that sits out beside a palm tree in the front yard of the house across the street, it sits there for like thirty minutes from around 8 til 8:30ish every day, and when the plane flies over every morning, it runs over to the house! I know I've seen it do the same over and over, but never picked up on the routine.. eh!

pictures are still there.. something went screwy with me id assume.

if there was rain i'd be singing in it

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First things first... 16

There are no pictures at the top for now because of the following:
ALRIGHT now I'm not so impessed with XiS.. (a) their login doesnt work (where i presume we'd set up any other email accounts) and (b) their ftp isnt set up properly yet.. I'll phone them from work tomorrow and explain that PAYING for webspace and PAYING for extra email addresses means that we ought to RECEIVE them. Other than that it's all good.

Last night was so cool! It consisted of:

Getting to Kirks at about 4:30pm - had i-dont-know-how-many-vb-throwdowns (the cheap part of the night.. well the whole night was cheap for US)

Getting to the Ocean International at 7pm - went into the "board room" on the first floor.. WHICH i might add is tres suave. Leather reclining desk chairs and all that cool stuff

Finishing said training by 7:30pm - went down stairs for 'drinks and dinner'.. which turned out to be.

Crownies! enough of them!
James Boags.. which is OKAY, as I just found out.
The house red.. which was tres mm-mm

DINNER. OMG MONG ASL!#?

seared scallops in a saffron and white wine sauce as an entree (place accent characters as needed)

seared eye fillet on a crayfish brandade with tarragon butter as the main course with a side of salad with fetta, olives and roasted tomatoes

.........and a twelve dollar port with my coffee

Guess how much the night cost me, ladies and gents!

$0

well THAT just bites damo, how come they changed their mind about giving you money eh? 'useless' is a useless term in the post preceeding, not to mention just ridiculous.. - XiS are fine and dandy for myself right now.. but 17, nonetheless.

*wraps elise in cotton wool* can't hurt yourself now, and hell, youre tonnes comfortable what with all that cotton wool! - the ghost train deserves to be punished.. block up its exit door, send a carriage in and set fire to it. *eye twitch*

..............................eheh heh kidding...

Alright, I'm seeing some counter-productivity in asylum seekers (leaving their country to escape injustices, torture and/or death) sewing their lips shut, undergoing said torture, and possibly risking death. As understanding as I am of these people wishing to leave their country (if I were in the same situation, I'd take any opportunity to leave, too) isn't that just a little.. backwards? I don't have complete faith that the government is processing visa applications for these people as fast as they might be able to, but i don't really *know* so I can't comment on that.. and I can't comment on the living conditions in the detention centres (which im sure aren't all that great.. but there's obviously food.. other wise a hunger strike would be out of the question) but isn't it even a smidgen better than going back?

...but I'm sure there's more to it, and in no way see this as a black and white issue.. *end social issues foray*

Eek, it's been totally yonks and stuff since I wrote anything here, I'm so slack.
Unfortunately I'm not so happy at the moment, some strange mixture of pissed off, depressed, and useless.
I need a job to have enough money to live, because centrelink is of the opinion my parents earn too much. My parents on the other hand say they can't afford to give me anything. Someone's not telling me everything I think.

Basically I have to find a job, which isn't easy considering I've never worked before. I'm also shithouse at applying for jobs.

In other news I'm still basically internetless, I just phone up my parents each night and ask them to get off the net. So I can steal their account. I do have an account with XiS and have been asked to pay for it. Unfortunately so far it hasn't worked. They also haven't been able to give me an expected time for it to work. They suck, steer clear. Ben has also just changed to them, I don't know if he shares my opinion or not.

I feel like going and destroying something beautiful tonight, I think perhaps I might watch Fight Club tonight, then go for a ride... but on second thoughts that probably isn't such a wise move.

Oh well, I'll be feeling better tomorrow, totally illogical, and no reason for it, but I'm still not a total pessimist.

On my mood:
the sun is up/i'm so happy i could scream

The Cure - Mint Car

On my good night's sleep! (1am - 9:46am):
when your light goes out tonight/and your stars lose their blinding light/you will dream of small change

The Devoted Few - Hopetown Lullaby

On my vulnerability:
anyone/that was slightly smart/could always easily break my heart

Lazy Susan - Indianapolis

On my now overwhelming faith and trust:
Time and time again you said/don't be afraid

Jimmy Eat World - Goodbye Sky Harbor

the mindless comfort grows/when im alone with my 'great' plans

Jimmy Eat World - For me This is Heaven

EH! 18 EH!

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and an of-no-consequence-lyric

yeah she looked like joan baez/from the nineteen seventies

I'll save the others for later!

twelve..? TWELVE? I'm sure I don't start at 12.. Tony seems to think I start at twelve, he didnt check my roster but thats when he said I started.. IF I START AT FOUR OR FIVE LIKE I THINK I'm demanding tomorrow off! (naw probably not, I kindof need the $ to spend in MELBOURNE [19]) *mumblegrumbletwelveoclockpshidontthinksomumble*

WELCOME TO THE BEN SHOW... .. .

*honk*

While we're back out of bed 19

i'm/starvin to be...

The rain's coming on and off, I keep waking up JUST before it stops, but I've stopped fighting now, I'll go back to bed at around 2 or so! (I don't think I have to work until 5pm today.. it's that or 10am) *smells the air* I think it's gonna rain again. *walks outside*

no no elise, Might *I* add..

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and us cold guys are for the summer ehhh!

Electric blankets are only good for capes.

Hmmm, me, I don't like hot guys, they cost me a heck of a lot in air-conditioning... now, Pez-dispenser men, you'll never go wrong there!

Plus - guys who are exceedingly hot are 45% more likely to undergo SHC! (spontaneous human combustion) So make sure you bring a dustpan, dude! ^_^

However, seeing from my studies I have discovered a way to prevent SHC! Just make him stand in a bucket of cold water the whole date - he'll love the fact that you cared enough about his life to prevent him from randomly bursting into flames, plus he'll probably pay much more attention to you, the bringer of ice!

Don't mind me, I've been reading humourous advice columns online... I found them while I was looking for advice on what to do with my relationship... which is kinda screwing itself over at the moment...

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It's raining buckets and what not here! I feel sorry for everyone at work today, yesterday's efforts involved removing an entire bay of paper from the paper wall due to a leak about 2cm wide in the stormwater pipes (thats right, they're inside the building ladies n gents, in an effort to deter people from climbing on the roof, one would assume) Needless to say, we've now got some CHEAP PAPER COMING TO THE CLEARANCE BAYS.

Swiiiiiiiiiming in the rainnnn.

*buzz*

With any luck I'll be singing along to the cure when I'm down there:

The sun is up/I'm so happy I could scream/and there's nowhere else in the world i'd rather be

It gets easier!

I'm slowly running out of things to say because I'm being such a recluse! It's all in the name of saving, though.. saving energy, also. I really need to go to the doctor some time next week to see about my upper back/shoulders, they're getting worse, you can hear the crackling if youre standing a comfortable distance away.

*edit* now that I'm awake past FREAKIN MIDNIGHT: 23

damo's *so* not knowing who you people are.. throw your msn/icq contacts at him! (throw them hard, he's a good catch)

So I left at 2pm. *crowd goes wild*
Next wednesday I have a 'Rentsmart Training Night' at the Ocean International. The dude that came in was brutaly honest about how painfully boring the night will be.. he said:

"Yeah, it consists of a training session that goes for about 45 minutes, then we'll go into the restaurant, have a meal and get drunk on the company's (rentsmart) money"

*rubs hands together* ROLL ON WEDNESDAY!

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*overly loud, exaggerated sigh*

WORKIN NINE TIL FIVE *rock*
actually i think i might go home at 2.30-3.. *mope*
RAHHH-AHH-HH-H
*vibrates off to work* (i had nothing to say except 24)

You know, signing up to get a phone connected is amazingly easy, and yet it still feels like you're selling your soul. Or at least, I think it did.
Today is my last day of cable internet, I'm devestated. We're not going to have any internet here for the next 3-5 days, while waiting for the phone to be connected. It'll be astonishingly jaw droppingly amazing what I should manage to get done.

Hopefully this page will now have a nice yellow bit down the middle, just for Elise. I only chose green before for lack of suggestions.

Welp, I'm feeling nausiatingly hungry, kinda mostly skipped breakfast and lunch, so I think I might go and be asian and cook my some rice. It's about all I've got at the moment, and shopping in this heat, and while I'm hungry, is likely to get very expensive.

you know if I weren't counting down 25 is where I'd stop, It's a tops number, dontchya think? five times five, five fives.
HELLO ANGIE! Couldn't think of a better loop for you to NOT be left out of! *wonders what cartoon character angie can be*

*vibrates off to the pool again*

Ohhhh... I want donuts and a concert! Yahhh... well, well.. .I'll hav emy ducks.. and my... paper.. and my... ducks on paper... so, hah! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Yes. Well, I'm certainly fortunate indeed! But for Elise, I... I'll give.. away my paper ducks... here you go... they're all I have, but I want to illustrate my wishing of a hpapy birthday... (aargh, I'm gonig to be 19 too this year... ooold o_I;)

Ack. Parents dragging me wawy. Prism hunters!

So you'll all have to be content with boys like me.
ITS REALLY TWENTY SIX OH MY I WAS MAKING THINGS WORSE.

Intrigue! ask me again some time soon and I'll tell you.
feed ducks, let's feed ducks when it's cold.

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Elise, even if you DO take me to where the Footscray donuts are, instead of punching you in the arm I'll drag you along to the candle concert! I'm glad that's sorted out. eheh heh. hm.

AH TWENTY SEVEN AH! *spins*

Everyone thinks I'm pissed off for some reason.. EVERYONE! :O Like, people at work, thought I was pissed off on Saturday.. couldn't be further from it, but EH?
Although things are a seeming a little strange.. no.. different.. right now I'm FAR from pissed off. psh.

You're all bells and whistles damo, WHAT HAPPENED TO THE REAL FEELING!@?
(see, thats why you HAVENT out done me, IVE GOT MEANING :P)
naw.

why's it your own fault? I DONT THINK IT WOULD BE. eheh heh dorry.

*vibrates off to the pool*

Happy Birthday Elise

I just had to out do Ben there.

You wouldn't have totally random colours Ben. Just a list that it chooses from at random. I do agree it's totally too much of a pain in the arse, but that's no reason not to discuss :)

Yeah, Ben, was a bit of a dissapointment, all my own fault, but oh well. Everyone's still good friends, so everything's hunky dorry and stuff.

In other news, I have an incredibly annoyingly sore tooth! Top right hand side at the back, where there isn't a tooth ... yet. Wisdom tooth coming down or something, I really wouldn't have a clue, it's just been bothering me lots.

Happy birthday Elise!

I thought about making the colours random, damo, BUT the whole conflict of text colours is a pain in the ass, unless its either white or black and just assign hex colours to one or the other but THEN we'd have to work out which ones look the best and blah blah blah to prevent any unreadable schemes. AND with me working so much and not really feeling like screwing around with this thats out of the question :P

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Hey Jen. good luck with your HOT EX BOYFRIEND DATE.. not that we're all about looks or anything :P
Hey Damo, TOUGH BREAK with Skye :/ WHATS GOIN ON THERE? thats poop :\

Ok, been having a few vodka and lemonde, I'm going out very shortly I do believe.
I'm tempted to make the colour scheme random, you never know which you're going to end up with, but frankly, at the moment, and in this weather I'll leave it for later.
I popped into the house with the party a bit earlier, not only are they shifty skanks, they're shift skanks from Caloundra!!
We aren't going to have a storm here until at least tommorow evening, perhaps even later.
Skye (girl I was interested in for the uninformed) is more serious with someone else, doh. But, she's well aware of the shifty skanks, and was invited, and wanted to come to see Emily (one of my housemates) 'deal' with them, it's supposed to be entertaining, I'm looking forwared to it :)
Anyway, I hope I've got everything right, and haven't said anything I didn't mean to.

AH! I like it! I'm sure this place will have numerous colour changes. eheh damo what does skye think of your harem of shifty skanks? eheh skanks.. ahaha hah eheh eheheh. *sigh* - OH MY ITS SO HOT ISNT IT but now its kindof stormy *points upward*

trahh! 28

Argh, my 'Green on websites' fetish strikes again!
Anyone violently (or otherwise) opposed to my possibly yucky colour scheme, please let it be known. I'm somewhat renowned for choosing colours that no-one else likes.

It's hot here today, too hot. So hot in fact that I think I'll go for a ride, and visit the library, and any shopping center I see. I'm supposed to be going to a party around the corner tonight, but I'm not all that enthused. Aparantly there's going to be lots of skanks there. I'll end up going, but staying is very unlikely, it's only a 3 minute walk, so if it's all too scary for me I can just leave.

Monsters Inc. is a very awesome movie, I loved it! Went to the dodgy cinema's just over the road, they weren't *that* bad, but I've been spoilt by only going to new one's of late, and not very often at that.

Actually, before I do anything, it's time for food, a carrot for breakfast doesn't exactly sustain one for the duration of a day.

Someone here will recognise this.. this person's leaving the COUNTRY, not just the CITY they live in, but if we dilute this only a little, it's almost exactly what i think about every now-and-then:

like a part of me is scared to leave, and is now trying to make the adventurous side of me take stock of what i will actually be losing. And i don't fool myself; i will be losing a lot. My relationships with many of my friends will deteriorate, and no matter how many letters i hope to write to people i know that within a few months there shall only be a small handful of people who i still care about. Letting go of years of freindship, letting go of history in a sense is difficult. It's like letting go of myself...finally accepting that what was is exactly that - what was, not what is. And with that memories shall be lost, laughter forgotten...kinda sad. -Z

the dilution comes in the form of how much I'll be losing, because my closest friends don't actually live here.. and i always stay in touch with those of my friends.. but family, and still, friends who live here. "Inevitability is the bane of my existence" : Knowing that a huge loss will inevitably mean nothing with time hurts even more than the loss itself

AH! how very blue. I screwed up and lost the original code so its gonna be blue til i bother adding a splash of colour. ANYONE feel free to do something with it... *nudges wendy* I'm *really* not in an ideal situation to be screwing with colour, given my monitor's current inability to use the right colour profile. AH! *runs into a wall* *dives into the pool*

AH! it IS after midnight.. so.. yeah damo SPOIL IT FOR EVERYONE (it's 29)
twenty nine! rar rar rah! naw damo fwap the people over their heads with your bed. FWAP.

I think the number of the moment is 29. But I'm not really sure why I should be bothered counting.

Just been out to a couple of clubs and payed a quick visit to the casino. Only four of us though, and no-one was too exciting, and everyone kinda tired, none of which makes for a good night.

I'm currently feeling really bad because there's not enough sleeping room for everyone, so someone has to sleep on the floor. I wouldn't mind, since I'm feeling kinda guilty. But try as I might no-one wants to take my bed. rejection sets in :(

I'm probably incomprehensibly boring, so I might waddle my way over there, and sleep.

HAH! Yeah, the image above is NOW COMPLETE! (eheh heh!) (im going to do something about the kindof-hard-to-read-text below erica and zoe, just BEAR with me (rar bear rar))
I'll come back after midnight to announce a new number, the one that comes after todays!

Finally, it's back *mumble*

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"Sorry, publishing is unavailable." *mumblestupidmumblegrumbleshouldvepunchedeliseinthearmmumble* (naw!)
30 is a much better number than 31.. because 29 comes next, then, 27.. and so on AH its kindof cool here for summer at the moment.. the threatening rain may have something to do with it. ITS SEVEN TWENTY AND OH MY GOD IM TIRED *passes out*

HAI DAMO.
Damo, this is everyone (eh-leese, eh-ricah, jen-eh, wehn-deh, zo-eh, mehsehlf)
everyone, this is deh-moh. (aka Damien, son of satan)

Hey all.
I'm seriously at a loss for something to put. But seeing as how I finally got an email to join today I should make an effort.

Shouldn't really be too hard, has been an interesting week.

Last Friday/Saturday I moved from Mackay to Brisbane. Long way, but should be worth it, I'm now sharing a house with a couple of girls. I need to be here for uni anyway, and another big bonus is cable internet. I haven't used it, but I think I'm addicted already.

Aww, poor Elise, fines are stupid. I hate them with a vengence. Never had anything with a car, but last year was hit for $150 for not having a ticket on the train. I count that as stupidity money though. If I'd been even half awake, and perhaps thinking slightly I could have got away with a warning. *sigh*

Welpies then, I think that might do it. I'm really feeling extremely uninspirational at the moment. Maybe later.

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I don't know what to do with my hands when I talk to you / you don't know where to look, so you look at my hands

SO MANY ANGRY CUSTOMERS. It's times like these (times when it all goes pear-shaped) that you wish you were in the pear-shaped universe, where everything has become normal-shaped. Either that or some process is implemented whereby angry officeworks customers get an electric shock device implanted in their skulls so any time they walk into officeworks when they're angry they have to run away or they DIE.
*(all of the above was said with a grin, not because im a crazy psycho, just that it doesn't *really* bother me all that much)*

the airport's always almost empty this time of the year / so let's go play on a baggage carousel

I'm so going to do that, MAYBE I WILL WHEN I GET TO MELBOURNE. (play on a baggage carousel, that is)

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You'll have to speak up, I'm wearing a towel. eheh, heheh heh AH SO FUNNY
*buzzes off to work*

I'm *so* buzzing with excitement its not funny, MORE good news came tumbling in, that being a friend of mine got asked to write for a REAL MAGAZINE and im so doing frontflips AND backflips of excitement (even though i couldnt do a flip if my life depended on it). I'm also doing frontflips of confidence, now. I'm sure total comfort *is* just around the corner! *beams a grin of confidence*

*sigh* im so going to bed now *lies awake*
night folks :D

(!!!!!!!!!)

ELISE it says you're online but you're not really are you! WHO COULD BE USING YOUR COMPUTER?
I bet it's the Sasquatch. ERICA I think I'll sleep on the floor because I'm scared of the couch bed.... ... .. .*cough*
And Elise is *so* right.. 34 days from today, 35 from saturday, THIRTY SIX from friday. I couldn't count *points to entry below*
mm Callipo. I remember eating Callipos when I lived at Deveraux Creek. That was cool. I was a sophisticated 6 year old (as sophisticated as a six year old can be) with a frozen tube of goodness.. kickin' back, down the chook shed, thinking about how COOL I'd be when I grew up... I guess that kindof died in the ass didn't it. Eheh. ehehehh. HEH!
omg mong.

Hoo hoo, hah hah hah!

Hmmmm, my downloads are going to take anywhere from 260 minutes to 19, according to WinMX. Hehehe. My connection is so broke-en, lalalalala.

I'm in a giggly moooooood, and also an excessive vowel-sounds kinda mooooooood. I probably should go on ICQ and say hi to people, I haven't been on in ages, but I don't know.. ICQ has kinda lost its buzz for me... maybe.. some other time... yeah...

I wore jeans today.

That might not seem very impressive to you guys, but I don't wear jeans. For most of my life, I've been resigned to looking really silyl in jeans. I can't help it, they just look comical on me. And I can do that on my own, I don't need props! Bah. anyway, I'm a skirt and dress person, but a few days ago I found a pair of jeans that look really good on me, and I wore them today. Everyone was very "Woah..... you're wearing pants!" That or "My God, you're alive?" But anyway. guys seem to have a thing for jeans. I kept getting people at the Guild today come up and introduce themselves to me. (Like they didn't remember that I was the same girl as the Skirt Girl, who they'd occasionally spoken to in the past, though never been introduced to) That was weird. Then again, I was gour inches tlaler than usual... was wearing shoes that lalowed me to wear the jeans without having to roll up the cuffs (even with four-inch platform shoes, they're too long.. I am so short. Though the jeans seem to be made for six foot women o_O;;;)

Oh, and they gave me dice. Pretty dice.

Anyway, I got lots of attention. I like attention. Bwahahahahahahah - so screwed up, I'm an introverted attention seeker. My life is full of contradiction. Or is it conduction? On second thoughts, I conduct contradiction. Through a sieve. With no shoes on.

No wonder my life expectancy is only 78 (Follen years)

AH! speaking of fruity:



It's nice to see youre kindof back wendy :D

35 Days to go.

Dude, I'm a frisky squirrel too!

I also am kinda fruity:

ahah im so many different kinds of squirrel! that thing is SUCH A SCAM
I did it once and i did it again with the same things and it said a DIFFERENT ONE and again and again.
But the first time it said i'm a:

HAI JEN! See now i need to put you in the spot between damo and zoe. *open hand waiting for a photo*

Jen you need to put a nickname in there like, oh, i don't know "Jen" because it uses nicknames in the Posted by section
Go to Team, click on your name and then go to Edit My Profile in the top right hand corner!

*buzzes*

Wendy is a grapefruit.

I think the new potato will be good. I have in my possesion now a Year Planner Notebook Thingy ^TM so that I will actually be able to do things! And see you guys more, 'coz I miss talking to you all *sniffles*

You guys should all come over to Perth, damnit! Aren't tickets to Perth like $5 now or something? :D :D :D

My New Potato started off pretty well. If I'm good, it might even get better *must remember not to toast elves in the oven without thewir permission* Not that I ever did, but it is something to remember. I'm going to stick to my New Year's resolutions (I haven't made any, but I have some ideas anyway) and become not only the Celestial Grapefruit of Destiny, but a very chuffed one at that.

The six people:

Wendy's another opendiary person, Zoe and Jen also. Damo's a friend of mine.
Elise is going to pester you for a picture, Erica!

Check this out.

Mackay to Brisbane
Saturday, 09 Feb 02
Depart Mackay 4.30pm and arrive in Brisbane 5.55pm

Brisbane to Melbourne
Saturday, 09 Feb 02
Depart Brisbane 7.30pm and arrive in Melbourne at 10.50pm

I won't put the return times up here because they bother me already *sigh*

AH! *runs into the new potato*

So I changed the image. SOME people MIGHT NOTICE that theres GAPS there.. *taps foot*

MAYBE it's time for a seasonal colour scheme change? I can't pick out the colours on here so as they look good.. my gamma's all screwy and i think the monitor's stuffed. Someone give me #'s from here

AH! *runs into a wall*

happy new potato everyone.